The past week (or so) has been one of procrastination and stalling. The Procrastination Monster has raised its ugly head.
I’m nearing the middle of my story and it needs a bit of work. I’m worried that it isn’t really going anywhere and I’m seeing some gaps I hadn’t noticed before. Some focused thinking, a bit of playing, some journaling and even some simple drafting could fix it.
I’m sure it could.
But am I doing that?
I’m reading about plotting, and structure, and fluffy romance novels (not even fantasy). I know I’m stalling but I just can’t seem to help myself. I had a sick child at home for a couple of days – that was some extra time while she convalesced on the couch. But what did I do? Watched Barbie movies with her and longed for her to drift off so that I could watch the end of Game of Thrones series 3 (even though I’ve read the books and knew exactly what was going to happen.)
Now I have wasted a good week and a half.
Because I’m overwhelmed. It all seems too hard at the moment, too difficult to fix the mistakes and make the story sing.
I have noticed is that a major relationship in the story has shifted and I have not clearly shown how or why that happened. If I don’t fix that a lot of what comes next will not make sense or ring true and the reader will not be as invested in the story.
So what am I going to do about it?
Sit in front of the computer and turn it on would be a great place to start.
Sometimes you need to force yourself to start and then the stress and problems don’t seem so big. I am still writing my daily sentence but with a pencil and my daily planner.
I need to play with some ideas. Play with what should happen between what I’ve got and the next serious action point. Or decide to push straight to it. Look at whether I am filling pages with fluff to get me to the next point. Consider if two chapters could be condensed into one, or the next two or three reworked and repositioned.
To work out where to go I will read what I have and what comes next and then draft out a rough idea (in a paragraph) as to what should go between and then make it happen.
It means pushing myself to start the process. Push the procrastination monster away and start. And hopefully clarity will follow close behind the determination.
Do you know why you procrastinate? How do you work through it?