But the days are growing longer, the trees are developing a green tinge and the scent of flowers is carried on the breeze (or gale depending on the day). It’s lovely being able to sit in the sun and feel the warmth of it against your bare skin. Ahh.
But despite the renewing energy Spring seems to bring with it, it is also a distraction.
It was my first quiet weekend in ages. No classes, no commitments and the sun shone. And so it was also time to get into the garden and start trying to tame the wilds that had sprung up overnight. The physical exercise was great and although I have a long way to go it does look better. Yet all of this sunshine and yard work distracted me from my writing. I did spend some time early Saturday morning at my desk but I’m in the final chapters and I’m worried that they aren’t worthy of being the final chapters. So I welcomed the distraction.
Actually I only have three chapters to go. Although I’m not confident in the few leading up to those and I think this current chapter could become part of the pervious. Thus leaving only two to go.
I’m at the climax and I’m not feeling particularly climactic. Or at least the writing isn’t for me. I’m hoping it will find its feet but that does mean more hours working on it rather than thinking about it as I move wood piles and dig out weeds.
It may be that it needs another rest and yet I worry that a rest would do more harm than good at this point. I’m trying to see the end without rushing toward it to keep me going. There have been too many times that I have put this book down and walked away for a bit and I know it is close now so I don’t want to do that.
It isn’t a matter of refocusing because I have been very focused on this story. It is a matter of maintaining that and trying to prevent any doubt from creeping in before I finish it that might prevent a finish.
Between the writing and editing and gardening I am also developing my writing plan for the rest of the year. I’m hoping that will maintain my motivation too. I was a bit soggy over winter and the retreat helped revive me. I’m hoping spring will help keep that going. So a couple of days off to catch up on the garden is ok, as long as I come back to it.